Believe it or not but at some point of time everyone feels it. It is the day after exams got over.Almost everyone went home, only few of us still getting pissed in hostel, and suddenly it attacked me, the loneliness. Just a day before, i was so into exams, tensed, baffled, nervous, and now, its totally reversed. I could feel the randomness in life. No one to talk , play, enjoy n of course smoke along. I am just alone n helpless. Hardly anyone can hear me screaming. This is what loneliness does to you.
The sea of loneliness is so deep that hardly anyone can survive and right there lying at the bottom you are forced to think about what you have been running all your life. Past memories are flashed like some movie and you are watching it alone in a dark room. Your mind stops working and your heart cries and shrieks and no one to hear.
Why cant we just put the past aside and move on?? Is it really that difficult ?? Why do we always try to relate everything with whatever bad has happened to us??? This is one moment when i cant really control emotions flowing outta through eyes in tears.
I could sense the heart beating hard trying to pop out and this is the time when you look for people and you can merely find no one, this makes the current state even worse. Why is it so, you don't find people when you need them the most??
In life, i just tried to follow one rule, not to have expectations from anyone, except yourself, but is it really so easy to execute?? ... i am afraid, no. When we make friends, we attach our emotions and under those emotions are the hidden expectations.
When you meet someone and gel up, you never come to know when that person becomes a part of your life.When they are not around, one could feel something is missing and the situation is no different with me. Importance can only be felt when you loose something and you know you cant get it back but you never stop trying.
I just want to runaway from this deep shit hole but its an abyss and you keep sinking deep n deep. Life looks miserable and you feel like no one wants you, no one likes you and there is just lies the loneliness.
p.s. cigarette smoking is highly injurious to health.......
The sea of loneliness is so deep that hardly anyone can survive and right there lying at the bottom you are forced to think about what you have been running all your life. Past memories are flashed like some movie and you are watching it alone in a dark room. Your mind stops working and your heart cries and shrieks and no one to hear.
Why cant we just put the past aside and move on?? Is it really that difficult ?? Why do we always try to relate everything with whatever bad has happened to us??? This is one moment when i cant really control emotions flowing outta through eyes in tears.
I could sense the heart beating hard trying to pop out and this is the time when you look for people and you can merely find no one, this makes the current state even worse. Why is it so, you don't find people when you need them the most??
In life, i just tried to follow one rule, not to have expectations from anyone, except yourself, but is it really so easy to execute?? ... i am afraid, no. When we make friends, we attach our emotions and under those emotions are the hidden expectations.
When you meet someone and gel up, you never come to know when that person becomes a part of your life.When they are not around, one could feel something is missing and the situation is no different with me. Importance can only be felt when you loose something and you know you cant get it back but you never stop trying.
I just want to runaway from this deep shit hole but its an abyss and you keep sinking deep n deep. Life looks miserable and you feel like no one wants you, no one likes you and there is just lies the loneliness.
p.s. cigarette smoking is highly injurious to health.......
